a bit better then yesterday..
2009-07-05
@ 11:33 a.m.
gong show onward..
so far I think I'm a bit better then last night..
I was just down and out..
everything really got to me and I just needed to do something..
anything about it..
writing seemed to help..
maybe that's what I've been missing all this time..
not too sure yet.. lol.
just when I thought maybe things would start looking up they always seem to take a weird and wonky turn...
story of my life..
I'll just keep fingers toes and eyes crossed that things will actually get better..
not just for a while but for maybe a long while..
I know that there's always bumps in the road and crap happens..
but this is getting totally redonkulous..
meh..
love..
oh what a powerful and strange word it is..
I think I should have rephrased what I used in my last entry..
nonetheless a deep caring yes..
I don't want to admit love yet..
because there's still that swinging sensation in my gut from it all..
go fig..
well.. at least the good thing about today.. hell the great thing about today is its pasta day..
really looking forward to that..
gramma's gone to church and when she returns we'll enjoy some food and eachothers company..
that's one thing I really enjoy.. we've made some little mini traditions that I hold really dear.. and eventually will carry on, on my own..
now I'm hungry.. thinking about pasta..
dang..